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who is she ? what is it about her that is so.... attractive?
why am i here... constantly thinking about her?
is it simply that i am insecure and therefore not at ease unless i'm speaking to her... unless i know that she's thinking about me...

yes... that definitely is at least part of the issue...
i'm an insecure lil boy.....

i need to drop that... it's not healty... it's also not very becoming...
she likes me.... i know it... even if i didn't she's told me.....
so therefore i need to take confidence both in that information... and in the fact that i know that God created me a wonderful person... and nobody's opinion can influence that fact or determine my worth....

hence i move forward....

this is becoming a beautiful development.... not because i'm getting what i wanted (heh heh heh) but because it's a growth between two people.. a developing interaction which began on one level and is progressing... with each individual gently feeling his/her way... gently nudging the comfort levels higher and higher...

with what purpose?

with the motivation of mutual attraction... one may surmise that this is a stepping stone to discovering what else may lie in wait for a relationship of this kind...

speaking for myself... it is with great anticipation that i seek to delve further into c.b. and deeper into the person that she is... that i may be for her that which she needs and truly deserves.... God willing.....